SurrenderedMan

" Serving Up A Dish Called .... God's Love "

2010-01-15T09:00:00.000-08:00

In a recent message series, Bruce made the following emphatic point,
" Discipline, not desire, determines behavior ". I think this message
can also be conveyed, in a way, through the story on ' serving God
through the local church', that i feel led to share...

Allthough God has blessed me with 7 years of service in the church's
junior and senior high ministries, it's through my story of becoming
(and being) an usher, that i trust God will use in the heart's of
others, who might be considering " what it means" to serve God through
our church. Hopefully, it might also provide a bit of insight as to
how ... when we seek to serve God...by serving others... He can '
sharpen and refine ' our spiritual gifts He gives us.

As background, i never really saw myself as the 'usher type'. When i
first started attended cccc some 9 years ago ( and, subsequently ,
accepted Christ as my saviour 7 years ago ) i remember sitting in my
chair, listening to the messages and seeing these "old guys" walking
up and down the isle. Sometimes, they wouls stop and stand beside me,
and make me nervous. Other times, they would come up and hand me the
offering bag, and i would frekishly imagine them staring down at me in
judgement, if i passed it along. Needless to say, it was NOT a
comforting impression.

Let me fast forward now.... Two years ago, when the church announced
it's intention to open a "west side campus", and was asking for an
increased financial commitment from members to support this effort, i
felt bad that i could not. I had just lost my job of 23 years, and was
uncertain how i was going to provide. Regular tithing occured, but i
couldn't fathom a larger financial sacrifice. One night, while in
prayer about this, i felt God leaning me to be obedient to this
effort, in some regard. Then, He showed me what i was to do; Volunteer
to serve as an usher, since the Egret Bay Campus would be losing
ushers ( in the form of some, who would be moving to the new campus ).
Yes... agads... i would commit to being one of those "old guys",
spooking people out, up and down the isle !!

At first, it was something i began doing "by rote". Seeing people as "
those needing a seat " and "robotically" taking the offering, when
called to do so. As the months progressed, however, a funny thing
began to happen. God began to " shine a light on " peoples faces, and
gradually gave me comforting and encouraging words to share. There
were the husbands, who came with a constipated look... as if the only
reason they were there was because the wifey " made them ". There were
those that showed up heartbroken...disappeared awhile when things got
better...only to return when times became tough, again. There were the
regulars, who sought out seats up close, and those that made great
strides just to come at all, and were comfortable surrendering to a
"rear view" seat. In all such instances, God taught me how to minister
to them, and gave me comforting words for each. It has slowly, over
the last two years, become one of my favorite "serves", and it would
take something "mighty big" to make me miss being there to do so.

I would also add this... when we step out and do become disciplined in
our commitment to serve, God will not only "use" us, but "multiply the
ministry" as well. From ushering, God gave me the "pen" ministry (
passing out pens to engage those He shows me need it)...and the "
smiley face " ministry (drawing smiley faces on kids faces, when their
frowns might be turned "upside down", and..finally...the " no pen left
behind " ministry ( where i take a pen or two, and leave them at a
local restaurant or Starbucks, in hope that someone will find it, and
come to church). It's truly been a fun, amazing thing to watch...and i
can't wait to see how God uses me next!

I'll close with this thought.... Whether it's in the area of youth
ministry, or as an usher. God wants to use our personalities and
history of brokenness, to shape our spiritual gifts. I was a "messed
up teen", so God has placed me in youth's lives, to share and serve
Him by using my story. God know i love connecting with people, so used
The Holy Spirit to learn to serve Him as an usher here at church.
Maybe you're not sure of your spiritual gift...ot how God can use you
in service to Him. My suggestion would be to just pick a ministry, be
obedient and...serve. God will do the rest !

In HIM,always....

MENTORS...

2009-07-13T08:24:00.000-07:00

I awoke this morning, and thought about how long it has been since i "exercised" my writing skills, or posted anything on my blog...soooo...

God has been so good to me lately. 2008 was such a transition year (work,relationships,et al..), and 2009 started with so many unanswered questions. What was going on with this fledgling real estate career? Where was the "next" adventure God wanted to take me on? Why..it seems..does God not bring me my "heart's desire"..in the form of an amazing,Christ-loving soulmate? Where is he taking me...and why? Like i said..so many questions, and hardly an answer to be found.

Well.. over the last many weeks, HE is beginning to answer many of the questions that,so, perplexed me.

For example...i "know" that he wants me to persevere, in looking to help people find a home, or sell theirs. I wake up every day and ask him to bring me people to help,and share The Gospel with..whenever possible. The rest..career-wise..i leave to God. I also can see that...as he brings people in my life to do exactly that..he shows me that "marketplace ministry" IS what it is ALL about.

Secondly, God is growing my heart for helping teenagers and broken men learn how to "life out" their faith. Daily...i see him using me in powerful ways,in that regard.

Finally...when it comes to the whole "heart's desire" thing, HE is teaching me to trust HIM,on a whole new level. Like the song says.." While I'm Waiting".

Which brings me to the "subject line", and point of, this blog;

As God grows me, and shapes my heart in the way that HE wants, i think of the men HE has brought into my life. Good, Godly men..with strength, hearts of gold, and with a strong sense of who they are,and their own purposes God gave them. He teaches me..by example, through the mentors he brings into my life! How awesome is that!

So...on this day..i want to recognize a few of them, and thank God for bringing them into my life...

1. Bruce Wesley- Who prayed for years before i came to faith, that i would. An awesome example of what a God-directed dad,husband and friend,looks like.

2. Steve Jackson- Someone who came into my life, when i took a leap of faith and started investigating what a "missional life" looks like. Someone with inner strength,humbleness, and a good husband and strong Christian man. He's awesome!

3. Chuck Gussler- Like Steve,above, a man i can look up to, and learn what it means to follow God..everyday, and seek HIS wisdom. Someone who is also an awesome husband, father and friend. A man who's passion for helping others..and a willingness to to "go the extra mile" for God, is unprecedented. Another great mentor, and friend to look up to.

4. Greg Poore- I would never leave him off a list like this. From the day i got off the floor in his office..after accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior..he has continued tobe an amazing example to me. An example of what an incredible husband and spiritual leader can look like. A sweet modesty that is so unique in this world of ours. Every time i see him, God reminds me of that day...when i surrendered everything, and jumped off the ledge.

5. Jim Coffey- Allthough we approach our walks a bit differently, Jim has ALWAYS been there for me! A true "2 am friend", and a great example of what it means to hold onto your convictions, and "life out" one's faith. Like the others...a super husband,dad,disciple and...friend.

6. Chad Clarkson- What a blessing it was, the day God brought him into my life, and allowed me to call him "friend". He's taken the time,to be used by God to grow my heart for missions. Seeing how awesome he is as a husband to his wife...and the passion he has to serve the Lord and expand the Gospel across the world, has been an inspiration,and example to me..and so many others. I wonder if he knows how he's impacted my life.

Well...i could probably add another few to this list, but i'll stop at those. God is so awesome for bringing these men into my life. I hope...someday...to be the kind of mentor to others, that these guys have been to me.

I'll close by passing on this tidbit of wisdom, as a result. If you want to truly grow your faith...ask God to bring men into your own life. Men who can "water the seeds that God has thrown around you". When...and if..you will, i think you'll reflect back (as i have here) someday on how, even more, amazing God is..in working in your life.

In HIM,always...

Jerry

SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE...HARDLY !!!!

2008-10-29T14:46:00.000-07:00

TODAY... i'm driving with the windows down,...sunroof open, on a cool,crisp,sunny day.

It's "deep thinkin" time (for me...maybe it just means...thinking..LOL). Thise week, i think God's theme for me is change; Life change, spiritual change( or,is the correct term "mortification"), relational change. The courage to "accept it", or more appropriately "not run from it".

It's happening anyway,isn't it? Not much my human...male..faulty self can do about it anyway...AS IF!!!! Anyways back to the subject of "change". God has used a few events of this past week to raise the subject in my heart/mind,and give it introspective consideration.

LAST FRIDAY night i took my daughters,Brooke and Alison, to a concert. It wasn't the concert that "rocked my world", rather the realization that my daughters are growing up fast now! How...seemingly overnight...they've gone from "tweeners", then "teeners"..to,now, just beautiful young women-to-be. So classy,and elegant..with hair and hearts of gold. They are changing, and i see it in them, and through them "in me", and..more importantly.."In HIM".

2nd Corinthians 5:17 comes into my heart.. " Therefore, if anyone is 'in Christ" he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold the new has come".

Yes, the NEW HAS COME, and is "ever coming". There's nothing i can do about it,except embrace it,and move ever-closer to it.

ALSO..this past Sunday..Yancey Arrington(my church's teaching pastor") gave an incredible message! One with the main point being "Belief Over Behavior". Often..as a single,twice-divorced man, i've felt( and feel) the stinging defeat he referenced. Defeat, in the form of one's inability to root out sin. My sins of lust,covetedness and idolitry..which are indwelling so deep,that i've felt discouraged time and time again,for not being able to reduce them on my own.

His sermon gave me hope on that subject, and made me understand..for the first time..that "change" comes most powerfully when we trust in God's "inward manifestations of change". The inward change that comes when we fully embrace what Jesus did on the cross, and how The Gospel changed me...even if,daily, i can't see it myself. Like it is written in the following scripture:

2nd Corinthians 4:18 " As we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal"

So..i ask myself.. Do i want "transient change" or eternal? Like i really have a choice, what with God being the one in charge...not me!!!

Yes...Belief Over Behavior! It IS starting to make sense, and becomes more freeing..and strengthening...daily now. The more i "attempt" behavioral change, the more frustrated i get..but the more God solidifies my belief in Jesus restorative actions on the cross..the more i do change,from the inside out.

Change comes no matter what. Spiritual change in the form of growing faith and trust in my God,my maker, my Father. Trust in HIM, and what he is doing in my life. Relational change...not in the form of "relationships", rather how God is using me in the lives of others. I how i relate to, and he uses me to help..others. And...yes..visible change,too...as i sit here and look at a picture of my daughters and me 5 years ago, and one from this past weekend. I don't "visibly" see much change in myself, but by looking at them i see evidence of change. Visible...yet invisible.

Just like our faith. What a coincidence.

THREE GOOD BOOKS.............

2008-06-22T14:17:00.000-07:00

I heard somewhere, that God can speak to us in three ways (not to discount that there might be others..such as dreams and nature); hunches, instincts and "first impressions". I also believe ..that when we,as believers, are in fellowship with our community of believer friends..he might also speak "into us" through them.

Anyways...when someone i just know is in an intimate,close relationship with God, i usually make it a point to listen to/act on, their advice. I also am apt to pay attention when they suggest a book,scripture or other "source material" directed at me.
In the last several months, i have been so directed to three books that have brought me cloeser to my Maker, made me think in a different way, or simply inspired me to press onward in my attempt to gain a more intimate relationship "in Christ".

Here are the three books...

"Layman Look Up" - An excellent overview of the concept of "marketplace ministry".

" Choosing God's Best" - A "relationship application" book of the very best!

" The Reason for God " - Tim Keller's insightfull book on missional aspects of Christianity.

For anyone desiring to spend some of your summertime learning,growing and reaching...these books are all awesome!

In HIM,always...

Jerry

WINDING ROADS .....

2008-03-30T18:51:00.000-07:00

Funny...how God will lead us to a particular point,subject or aspect of our life "In HIM", if we’re open to looking for it, listening, and practiced at taking our spiritual "blinders" off..when he does.
Yes..i’ve spoken about this practice before..so reader beware! :O)

I love Bonnie Somerville’s song, "Winding Road". I discovered it(or..err..God revealed it to me) the other night, while watching the movie "Garden State". Instantly falling for the melody, and then coming to fancy the lyrics,alot. Here’s a sampling..

" ..it’s a winding road, i’ve been walking for a long time, i still don’t know where it goes. It’s a long way home..i’ve been searching for a long time, i’m gonna find my way home"

Yes..they’re rather simple, but just listen to the song.It will grab you, and it made me think. Think about my own road these last 6 months, and how exciting, mysterious , crazy, scary and fun it’s been !!!!
Some doors have closed, and new one’s have opened. Some friendships have cooled or dissapated..other,new ones, have begun. Ministries that once seemed my life,seem less important now. Ministries i never even knew existed,have begun..and the passion for them increases and unfolds,daily. God is freak’n amazing! He keeps us moving and changing,always.
While conteplating all this, i was..for some reason..directed to Luke Chptr 24,verses 13-36. The passages cover "The Walk to Emmaus", and are basicly about two men walking..discouraged..contemplating Jesus crucifiction, and a hopelessness that came from that. How Jesus appeared as a stranger,allowed them to confide their emotions to Him.Jesus allowed them their emotions,then..at a certain point..revealed himself to them, and the glory that came with His death and resurrection.

There’s a "tie in" here somewhere, as i just don’t believe that God opens a door..or takes us on our "winding roads", without desiring to teach us something. For the men walking to Emmaus, it was a road to an "awareness of faith". I think..perhaps..the same could be said for this little journey of mine. There have been times when i really wondered about God’s purpose for all he’s done to,with and for me..these last few months. Why he brought someone to me,who i thought was the bride he had in mind..then took her away? Why he stripped me of my job( my proffesional "identity"), and didn’t..right away..deliver me another? Why he’s cooled long-standing friendships, and replaced them with others?

I couldn’t for the life of me,see his reasoning,while "in the thick" of it..but i am starting to have an idea..now. It’s about character..and perserverance..and strengthening of, and reliance on,faith. It’s about HIM teaching me to "really" be a Godly man, and giving me the experiences to now "life it our" on a new,different,level. Again..God is amazing!

Well..i’ll sum it up in this scripture ( Luke 24:32) " They said to each other, Did not our hearts burn within us while he talked to us on the road, while he opened to us the Scriptures"

I love that! Thank you God, for speaking to me. For leading me to the movie...which led me to the song...which led me to thoughts of you..which led me to scripture...wich led to Godly wisdom, and encouragement.

It IS a winding road...for all of us! I challenge the reader to,also, always look,be open to and understand that God will show you, and provide clarity, through many mediums...if we’ll just let him, and follow where it leads.

In HIM,forever...
Jerry :O)

EASTER THOUGHTS.....

2008-03-14T18:45:00.000-07:00

I love this time of year !

The sun's warmth starts to become a daily occurance. People just seem to have an extra "bounce" in their step. More smiles abound, and greet us as we go about our daily duties.
Mostly though, i just enjoy being amazed at how God brings a natural resurgence, in the form of "mother nature" ; with clover taking over yards, trees starting to bud again, and the return of small creatures...everywhere! It makes me think of resurrection in general, which..as a believer and lover of Christ, only leads me to thoughts of Easter's truest meaning, Jesus' resurrection..and how it brought a "new life" to us all!
Every year at this time, i just seem to regain enthusiasm, and heart. When it comes to serving others, and my love for Jesus. This year..i am marveling at the path God has me on, and the people he has brought into my life. What an amazing God!
I guess i'll close this thought with a poem that my sister wrote several years ago..before she passed away. I love it...and hope the reader does too....

Easter Day
By Danna Hope Hale

I love to wake on Easter Day
And ponder God’s redeeming way
A lamb – to live and die, and then
A stone to move – and life again
“He is not here,” the angel said,
For He has risen from the dead.”
Will you believe this in your heart?
Will you believe and do your part? –
To go into the world and preach
To all creation, and to teach
That Jesus lives and through His name
Our lives will never be the same!

THE STAND

2008-02-12T21:40:00.000-08:00

As i sit here at the computer...listening. Listening..to the words of Hillsong United's song "The Stand", it just humbles me so freak'n much. Making me see ... so clearly... how i do really fall short...but desire so much " not to".

It's quiet in my house tonight, with Brooke asleep, the t.v. off , and nothing but me. Me sitting here, earbuds in my ears , my ipod blazing with these words(and chorus).....

" I'll stand, with arms high and heart upended, in awe..of the one who gave it all. So i'll stand , my soul Lord to you surrendered , all i am is yours."

IT RESONATES ... it shines a light on the many ways i fail to truly... really... honor God with all i do ! In my daily life...how i "sometimes" treat and speak to others...but, equally important, my thought life towards others,as well.

Father God, let me actually love you so much that i want to, and can, have my thought and active life match the words to this song. I pray that you'll remove any hard-hearted views,bitterness or resentment toward others from my heart. Let me further surrender my soul to you Lord and, even if it's not "felt" now, lift up others and ask that you glorify their lives and grow all of us, together, in your Son's likeness.

".... So i walk upon salvation, your spirit alive in me. This life to declare your promise, my soul now to Stand. So what could i say? What could i do? But offer this heart o God...completely to you."

THAT'S IT...in a nutshell. Perfectly quoted in that song verse. I DO offer this heart to you Lord ....and invite you to just keep on transforming it.
In HIM,always....

MY OWN 'LIL "BUCKET LIST"

2008-02-04T21:30:00.000-08:00

I saw the movie "The Bucket List" a few weeks back. At the time, i really wanted to rush home and write my own "list" ...but decided to pray on it for a few weeks, first. Anyways ...this is the list, i think, God's finally placed on my heart;

1. Write the "great american novel".

2. "Get it right", and be someone's awesome hubby.

3. Be able to do full time ministry.

4. Be around to watch both my daughters have kiddos, and take them all surfing.

5. Just keep becoming a better and better friend.

6. Love passionately again,with no fear of failure.

7. Trus, and be open to, where God is taking me..from a local and global "mission perspective".

8. Watch 10 years worth of jnr high boys grow up to love the Lord with all their hearts.

9. Serve at my church till i'm old, and watch all my favorite church peeps do the same.

10. Die in my sleep.with a smile on my face.

In HIM,always........

Jerry :O)

RIDING THE WAVE OF FAITH

2008-01-30T07:54:00.000-08:00

I am really learning...more and more each and every day... how our " believer family" is so very much, also " real family" in most every applicable translation.

God is also teaching me alot about "transformational faith" and how...as our hearts grow for both the local and global mission-field, it's so very akin to one of my favorite sports .... surfing.
A little on my beginning topic, first:

TONIGHT was special ... and happy ... and sad. It marked about the 5th year that our little band of Christiansurfers have been meeting. The relationships,closeness and friendships that God has grown over the years holds a special place in my heart. I've learned alot just watching them, loving up on them, and being open to them doing the same, for me. We said " goodbye" to two...Kylle and Haley, tonight. They move to Hawaii, to spread the vision, love and hope that is Christ Jesus. True...we'll see them again this summer...but their empty chairs in our group will never be filled. What a blessing they've been to our group!
On the way home tonight, i reflected on the special relationships that God has brought me...in many different circles of believers: New Wine Gathering in Bacliff, the Starbucks Men's Fellowship(that has been going on for 2+years now), My Clear Creek Jnr High Adult Volunteers Group, super close family friends in Becky and Jeff Gray and..finally... the (now) high school guys that God has given me the chance to "pour into" these last 6 years. How blessed i am, and thankful to God...everyday!

As for TRANSFORMATIONAL FAITH:

I continue to be amazed at the path God has taken me on. How..through so much "relational loss", he just keeps on bringing into my life "relational gain"...in profound ways. How...beyond that...he grows our faith not vertically, but horizontaly, as well. Mission minded, if you will.
Being on mission for Christ is SO MUCH akin to surfing...seriously! If our beach is the foundation of which our surf experience begins, so too is our local church. We grow there, we thirst there, and we begin to "seek out" there. Yes..we even begin to be pushed out.
Then..there is the "paddle out"! It's not always easy, and there are peaks and valleys of whitewater to fight through...just like in our faith...when we have to go through the "low points" before we can "Go Local" or "Go global" and spread the gospel to others.
It's that glorious desitination we search for, and seek. The place where we begin to TRULY make an impact for Jesus, and teach and bring others to Him. It's the "line-up"..or "mission-field". It's the "perfect wave"...or the "perfect opportunity" to share the gospel with another. We're in the lineup...in the mission field, and God really starts to use us...to give us opportunities to share. He gives us that PERFECT WAVE. We ride it in, and praise Him, and serve Him...all the way to the beach. Then we rest gain...renourish...resupply...and paddle out...again!
I love this analogy. This parable, if you will.
Let's all seek HIM. Let's not sit on the beach and watch from afar. Let's grab the board(the cross) and paddle out...and do it all over again...for HIM.
In HIM, always....

Jerry :O)

"INKED" -SurrenderedMans Testimony

2008-01-10T09:20:00.000-08:00

I got my tattoo when i was getting my divorce. A heartbreaking event, symbolizing the end of my 10 year marraige. My original motivation..sheer rebellion, and a way to thumb my nose at my (now) ex wife, and just "do" something...anything, to get her goat.

After my divorce, i sought refuge from my pain..in the form of constant partying, chasing women to feed some emerging rejective seed and ... i see now..to hide, from myself, God and others.

Here's where it gets weird.... You see, my tattoo was of a red surfboard,with white trim. My actual surfboard was white, with red trim. This is significant, because...in a way..God took that tattoo, made "it" right, and made me right in HIS timing, not mine.

Back to my story... After my divorce, and two years of parting and racking up alot of debt, i was empty. I started attending CLear Creek Community Church in the fall of 2001. The more i went, the more i wanted to be there ! God had seen to it that i was at the end of my rope ...or was it the beginning ?
One day ...on the steps of church, i asked the Pastor if he would come over and talk to me.I was broken, troubled and asking him ( and myself) questions about how i was doing life, and why i felt so freak'n empty. Suprisingly, he agreed, came over that very night..and we talked for 2 hours !!!

Did i immedietly turn to him and accept Christ?? No, i was stubborn.

Fast forward..a year later. God was breaking me ..hard ! I went to work one day, crying and even more broken ... and called the church. I spoke to the community pastor and , 30 minutes later, i was on my knees, accepting Christ as my Lord and Savior. Afterwards, the Pastor asked me "now what are you going to do"...my answer was the following Sunday, when i joined my first small group ( Bible Study for Dummies...a name i thought was appropriate).

I always thought..when i accepted Christ, that the story ended there. What i've discovered is that our testimony is never ending. Since that time, God has been at work in my life ...bigtime ! He's brought people into my life, for the sheer purpose of helping define HIS purpose for me. He brought me broken ...again..to Exchanged Life Ministries, and John and Joyce Stanley. He brought me there to show me who i really am "in Christ", and real, honest to goodness applications for life-transformation and the ability to live out this new found faith...daily. He brought Becky Gray into my life, to lead me to serving in junior high ...which i have now for 5 years. He brought Godly men into my life, which helped me understand i have a gift for discipling to, and helping other lost or broken men. He brought an organization called Christiansurfer into my life, which showed me that there are good christian guys who raise their families right, surf and share God's word with the lost.

So..that's where i'll close my story..back at the beginning. That tattoo...the one that was the opposite color as my real surfboard. God made that right,too. He had me stumble onto a (sight unseen) surfobard for sale on a surfers messageboard..but a year after i had crossed the line of faith. As i approached the garage where it was stored..i had no idea. As the garage door opened, i looked inside..and what did i see. A red longboard..with white trim. Identical to the one on my ankle.

I smile when i recal this story. God made the surfboard allign with the one on the outside of my skin. He also took that surfboard..and through his working in my life, made it a part of my purpose for him...to disciple to the local surf community, troubled teens and broken men. Now..when i occasionally look down at it..or someone asks me about it..it makes me smile. It makes me get goosebumps just thinking about it. God's amazing, and sometimes..when he's at work in us..we can't see it at the time. But it IS undeniable..and amazing...and and so cool, too !

There is another way to fullfill ourselves , and it doesn't start or end with with us ...rather ....HIM.

New Years Resolutions

2008-01-10T08:37:00.000-08:00

My New Years Resolutions........... WOW...it's a new year ! We all get the chance to "wipe the slate clean" and begin again. I'm thinking about my goals,dreams and purposes for '08.

Generally speaking, i want to surrender more to God, and make HIS, for me, my own. To fully trust HIS plan for me. To be "sealed" in the idea that He DOES want me glorifying HIM, and by me doing so..will have a fantastic plan for me. Soooo...on to the specifics...

1. RELATIONALLY - For the past many months, i've thought God was speaking to me, and saying i WILL be getting married in '08. I'm beginning to think he wasn't specificaly speaking "marraige"(allthough this still might be the case), rather just bringing into my life( or manifesting it with someone i already know) the woman who will eventually become my bride. Mostly, HE knows that as my hearts desire, so "i" don't have to "do" anything. HE will do it for me...when HE is ready. That's cool!

2. PREPARATION - God is growing me, and praparing me... to accomplish great things for HIM, this year. I'm being given the chance to give 5 sermons in junior high in '08 ( and am already preparing for that). I'll be evaluated after each one, and am asking God to speak into my heart, if he wants me pursuing a vision of becoming a pastor. I hope so, but only if it is what HE wants for my life. I am committed to becoming an ardent follower, a humble servant, and more Godly, obedient man and, again, let HIM take care of the rest.

3. SANCTIFICATION - I am human, and still have so many faults and "fleshiness" for HIM to work on. I interrupt too much, tend to drift into "me-ness" too frequently, have remnants of lust in my heart, and am lonely, too much. These all speak to spiritual "softness"...and i'm asking God to continue HIS work in me, in this regard. I want to fully trust,rely on, and have faith in HIM to work in (and on) me. I want my believer friends to hold me accountable in all these areas. I want to be "all about" HIM, and not "all about" me.

4. LOVE,LOVE,LOVE - I love "love". I want to love God more, my daughters more, and my family and friends,more. I'm asking God to completely seal me in my love for HIM, so i'm not so quick to incorrectly "fall in love" again with another. To not just use "emotion" when i interpret the woman i fall for as being sent "from" God, rather ask God to give me powers of reason and spiritual discernment in making a decision to do so. I pray that God has taught me powerful lessons as to how to better go about it, the next time. Sooo ...in '08 ...i'm asking God to speak clearly,hold me close, and not let me confuse my "wants", with HIS "needs", for me.

5. APPLICATION - This is where i get to give up '08 to HIM. All of my items no.'s 1 through 4 are HIS, not mine. I need to remember this, and continue to press inward in my relationship with HIM. Read my Bible more often, pray more specificaly. Name what i desire "in Christ" and claim what i want "in Christ".

Thank you Jesus, for giving me the experiences you did in '07, so that it will make me better serve you...in '08 !!In HIM,Jerry :O)